Let What Have Passed be The Past – Don’t Worry Dear

Happy Hump Day!

I originally prepared this for Monday. But somehow, I decided not to post it. Maybe it was too personal and the introvert side of my extrovert-introvert combination yelled NO. Loud and clear.

 

But yesterday, I heard a very bad news that happened to someone I know from someone else.

Well, you see.. I don’t know this person personally. But he was kind enough to share his story with me to inject some encouragement to do something   He also offered me his help. *convinced me that I’m not alone and that they understand*.

So when I heard the news, and knowing the pain as I have been in that position before, I can’t help but to feel a share of sadness for him. It might not be the same story. But it’s like the books you’ll find in the same rack of a library. So I wish I could offer him some sort of consolation.

While prayer might be the only thing I can do for now, I also could not ignore the urge to post this song. Because I found strength from this song. And I hope, that person or anyone reading this can also be inspired by it.

 

This song is a solemn Folk-Rock song by 전인권/Jeon In-Gwon which was originally introduced in 2004. Recently the song was popularized by one of Korea’s most prominent singer-songwriter: 이적/Lee-Juck, as a part of the Original Sound Track of a popular K-Drama: 응답하라 1988/Reply 1988.

 

I initially did not like the song and tended to avoid listening to it. I thought it was too sad. But as I peeled that layer off, I found that this song can actually bring consolation, encouragement, and strength.

 

Lyrics + Translation

걱정말아요 그대 – 전인권
Don’t Worry, Dear – Jeon In-Gwon

 

그대여 아무 걱정 하지 말아요 / Dear, don’t worry about anything
우리 함께 노래 합시다 / Let’s sing a song together
그대 아픈 기억들 모두 그대여 / All of your painful memory deep in your heart, dear
그대 가슴 깊이 뭍어 버리고 / Bury them in the depth of your heart

 

지나간 것은 지나간 대로 / Let what have passed be the past
그런 의미가 있죠 / there’s a profound meaning to it
떠난이에게 노래 하세요 / Sing to those who have left/passed
후회없이 사랑했노라 말해요 / Tell them that you have loved with no regrets

 

그댄 너무 힘든 일이 많았죠 / You must have gone through so many difficult things, dear
새로움을 잃어 버렸죠 / You might have lost the novelty of life
그대 힘든 얘기들 모두 그대여 / all of story of your hardships, dear
그대 탓으로 훌훌 털어 버리고 / brush them all off

 

지나간 것은 지나간 대로 / Let what have passed be the past
그런 의미가 있죠 / there’s a profound meaning to it
우리 다함께 노래 합시다 / Let’s sing all together
후회없이 꿈을 꾸었다 말해요 / Say that we dreamed without any regrets

 

지나간 것은 지나간 대로 / Let what have passed be the past
그런 의미가 있죠 / there’s a profound meaning to it
우리 다함께 노래 합시다 / Let’s sing all together
후회없이 꿈을 꾸었다 말해요 / That we dreamed without any regrets
우리 다함께 노래 합시다 / Let’s sing all together
새로운 꿈을 꾸겠다 말해요/ That we got to dream a new dream

 

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Credit: tvN

 

Yesterday, I received a text which I would not expect anyone to see me by the adjective the sender describe me as:

“[…] I can’t imagine how u overcame ur […]. U r so brave”

Brave is not necessarily the word I would come with to define myself. Maybe when I was in high-school. But not now, not the present me. Live happens. And this past year or two, it seems like live decided to get the better of me and it feels like I’m just (poorly) trying not to let everything from crumbling down.

But as I listened to this song. I found maybe the reason why I could only see how things are bringing me down was because I was stuck in the past. I was busy looking back. I longed for my old self. The old situation. I desperately wished togain back what I have lost forever.

 

지나간 것은 지나간 대로 / Let what have passed be the past
그런 의미가 있죠 / there’s a profound meaning to it

 

Oh dear. Life does not go that way, does it? I felt like God is trying to remind me *once again* to live in the present. I might not be able to go back to the old version of myself *I might no longer be leaning more towards my extrovert talkative super social side, and be more comfy with the pondering kind of self, etc* . But instead, I have to believe everything that has happened has shaped me to be the better version of the old one. That I gained more than what I have lost. And that I should learn to love this version live up to the best version that God has shaped me into. No regrets.

 

후회없이 사랑했노라 말해요 / Tell them that you have loved with no regrets
후회없이 꿈을 꾸었다 말해요 / That we dreamed without any regrets
새로운 꿈을 꾸겠다 말해요/ That we got to dream a new dream

 

When you lost something you can’t replace, a storm of dark emotions might take over most of your heart. Regrets, feeling sorry, longing to love/do more, just missing the presence to name a few. I felt that a part of my dream was taken away from me. And nothing will ever be the same. While it’s true, I failed to see other opportunities of new dreams. I was bound to the hopelessness of that loss.

 

It felt that to move on meant to forget. And that is the last thing I want to do. But apparently, each human are given the ability to heal and to have enough courage to keep on going.

 

It may take the others’ point of view to see what you have gained, or to recognize your positive things – while you are blinded by, if not caught in, the storm of hardships.

 

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Credit: 전인권컴퍼니

 

And for that, I am here to extend my heartfelt encouragement to all of you reading this. From one life fighter to another.

 

Let’s take only the good memories and turn them into our strength to move forward. Make your past self (or whatever of your past) be proud that we get to take only the good meaning of our past to face our new reality with new dreams, and strength.

 

While I know too well that it is easier said than done, at least, let’s try together. Let’s be brave.

 

 

 

AH! Now I really have to buy a venti green tea latte for the messenger of le news. Dang it.

 

 

 

I will be praying for you.

Love,
Med

It’s Okay, Daddy’s Girl

Happy Sentimental Friday!

Today’s post is going to come out to be a tad more personal than how I would normally wish my blog posts to be. But still, we’ll be discussing a good Korean Drama filled with raw emotions and a lot of encouragement.

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It’s OK Daddy’s Girl is a SBS drama aired in 2011. It tells a story about the struggle of two families to defend and save Eun Chae-Ryung’s (Moon Chae-Won) father from false accusation of crime. Chae-Ryung lived in a sheltered (ehem *spoiled*) life thanks to her dad.

When her dad collapsed, she had to learn oh how to grow up. In her struggles in keeping the family together, finding ways to save her dad, wishing her dad will wake up soon, discovering her true character (that were concealed with the pretenses she had while living the uptown live); she discovered her strength by knowing that she is *indeed* her dad’s daughter.

Well, of course with the help of handsome lads around her.

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“It’s ok daddy’s girl” – is the phrase that Chae-Ryung’s dad used, to ensure her daughters that everything is going to be ok. The source of strength for Chae-Ryung and her sister to face all ordeals that came their ways.

 

I was smitten by this drama because it was not the normal rags-riches romance/family drama. As I mentioned before, two families went hand in hand to find that much needed justice and restoration *in health and in truth* for the father. That included the family of Choi Hyuk-Ki (Choi Jin-Hyuk *yes you’re given the pass to fangirl*) and Choi Wook-Gi (Super Junior’s Lee Dong-Hae),whose family was unintentionally, but tragically, involved in the whole accident/crime. Of course, romance bloomed between the male and female lead characters *duh*. But bear in mind that Hyk-Ki was not from a well-off family. But yet, they were not lacking even an inch of affection and earnestness to face life with a smile.

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For most daddy’s little girls, dads are their first love and the person they rely on the most. But one point in our lives, we’ll have to be in the same position with Chae-Ryung: not being able to have that stronghold anymore/for the time being, and having to grow up completely on our own two feet.

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So today (February 19, 2016) is my late dad’s birthday. The first birthday without him. The past few weeks were really hard and stressful for me (things to be done, to think about – the normal life challenges). And without me knowing, it got harder as his birthday drew near. So the two mixed together and I broke down. Geez, I wouldn’t imagine that today was gonna be this tough.

I had wished, during those down times, that I could pick up the phone to randomly say hi or to ask him things like “what do you think about this situation” or “what do you think I should do”. Although brusque, I know he would have had given me his wisest response to help and calm me down. And plus today is his birthday, oh how I wish I could just… Yeah.

The phrase that Chae-Ryung’s father had used – that became his daughter’s spells to muster up some courage and strength – has reminded me to also pick up those courage and strength to keep on going. Even though he is not here, he is in my heart. And everything is going to be ok because I am his daughter.

 

“괜찮아 아빠 딸”

So. For all of Chae-Ryungs out there. No matter if you currently facing the same struggles as the drama’s heroine, myself, or even if you have to live away from you dad (boarding school, living abroad, etc) just remember that, because you are your dad’s girl, you will always carry his love and wisdom in your heart. You will remember them forever, as the companion of your journey. Believe that you can pour out your best effort, because you have learned of having the zest for life and the sincerity to face it only from the best. Let’s make him proud!

I love you, Pa. Happy birthday!

Until Monday!

Med

If you are hanging in there, you haven’t reached your limit – Oh My Venus

Happy Friday, no it’s not the first friday of the week, of the month, nor of the year! I mean happy Friday for those who have to work overtime on a Saturday.

My excuse for this late post – I was debating should include a bit of my personal experience or not. So I wrote it and deleted it and ended up being distracted by a potluck dinner I had with my roomie and her friends.

Anyways. How are you doing with your new year’s resolution? The first week of 2016 has passed, are you showing signs of giving up? I told you not to have resolution like “losing weight for 2016”! But whatever you are doing to make a better you in 2016, remember that 21-40 days – some people says 66 days – to build a new habit. So, just keep going!

If you need inspiration/motivation to persevere, you can learn a thing or two from KBS2 Drama 오 마이 비너스/Oh My Venus! one and only heroine: 강주은/Kang Joo-Eun (played by Shin Min-A)

 

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This romantic comedy drama revolves around Kang Joo-Eun and 김영호/Kim Young-Ho a.k.a John Kim (played by So Ji-Sub) and their fight against their conditions. Kang Joo-Eun with hypothyroidism (when your thyroid doesn’t produce enough hormones), and Kim Young-Ho with physical and mental traumas from an accident that happened during his childhood.

 

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If you *for some reason* have seen my other SNS (Instagram, Tumblr, etc.), or if you caught some hints I had on my previous posts, you might have known that early last year I was diagnosed with a chronic disease called Graves. It’s Hyperthyroidism, the opposite of what Joo-Eun had. If hypo is caused by the thyroid itself, hyper is an autoimmune disease. They’re the opposite from one another, but some of the conditions/effects are similar.

So, during the first 2 very funny episodes I just bursted into tears. It was not a pity party. But tears because it just spoke to me in a personal way. Like suddenly someone could understand what you are going through and the intensity of the fight against it (and the many looking and judging eyes), and they are also fighting along with me (and showing how it’s done).

So this posts will showcase a few things that I learned from Joo-Eun, her handsome coach-nim, and from the drama in general *embrace yourself with quotes galore*.

 

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Whatever the magnitude, everyone is in pain, in their own little way. So, don’t cry. Everyone is still living on, enduring their burdens. – John Kim

I learned from Joo-Eun’s struggle to not be defeated and that, often times, what constrains and limits us the most is ourselves. With her I’ll-prove-to-you-that-I-am-Daegu-Venus mentality, and with the help of *what I like to call* the three handsome chipmunks Joo-Eun’s musketeers, she was able to achieve her goal in the healthy and happy way. The adorkable Joon-Sung and Ji-Woong made, what supposed to be dragging, her routine more fun as they kept on helping with their care and funny acts.

 

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I can do anything as long as I set my mind to it. To me they are the same. If I believe I can do it. Because I believe, I can do it. – Ep. 11

Coach-nim. I learned a lot from him too. Even if everyone is helping you, at the end of the day it’s your fight. No one else will do it on your behalf, no one can enter the ring to help you further. It’s your (lonely) battle that you have to face. To give up or to keep on going, it’s your own decision. Coach-nim courage to face his trauma. And to continue on his battle for the second time… Respect.

 

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It may look fine on the outside but it needs time to heal – Ep. 2

The drama was a really fun one to watch. Joo-Eun + Young-Ho funny and cheesy interactions are adorkable. From the antagonists characters presented at the beginning of the drama, I expected it to have a vicious backstabbing, if not a little bit cruel, kinda plot. But the antagonists were there for a bit and the plot revolving their “mean” nature were not developed thoroughly. It’s good and bad I think. I don’t like to see a long and winding story with too many unexpected I-feel-like-punching-you-in-the-face-for-doing-that kind of plot. But it made me question why they are there. What significance do they have in the story in general? Did the writer have a more profound meaning/story for them but they ended up cherry picking some of them, just to make it a “drama”.

Well I don’t know. But the antagonists fast-pace development feels like an itchy spot that you could really not scratch for me.

 Do you know why the past is important? Because it serves as a lesson for us. – Ep. 1

Now, for all Kang Joo-Euns and Young-Hos out there, with whatever conditions *esp. health* you are in, may we will be able to encourage each other, and to push ourselves outside of our boundaries. Although it is easier to do it together, than alone, there will be days when we need to “tap-tap”, take a Kang Joo-eun day, or we would even need to face fight alone. But that’s ok, we’re in this mental, emotional, physical healing journey together.

For those coach-nims who are already one or two steps ahead, it’s time for you to look back and reach out to those behind you so they could get motivated to keep on going.

 

Credit: KBS2 Subs: Drama Fever

 

Let’s not be defeated and dictated by those conditions. But instead, remember that:

We can’t give up because we’re scared of something – Ep. 16

and that:

기억해요. 버티고 있다면 한계가 아니라는 거 믿으면 할 수 있다는 거 / Remember. If you’re hanging in there, You haven’t reached your limit (you haven’t done anything beyond your limit). If you believe, you can do it. – Ep. 14

 

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To the being healthy is sexy days!

Med

To You Who Eat A Lot Because You Are Lonely – Let’s Eat

Happy first day of 2016. First Friday, first post of the year.

2015 went by so fast. I hope 2015 treated you well and 2016 started on an awesome note for you all.

I went through a lot and learned a lot, did a lot of growing up, experienced a lot. Some of them includes the anxiety of still being on probation at work,  passing the 1 year mark with satisfying results, the unbelievable “I went home twice a year”, being diagnosed with graves + multiple visits to the emergency and fighting it in a posh style (although with occasional tears and discouragement), bidding goodbye to my dad, dealing with grievances before and after his passing, gathering strength from my fam *especially my cousins*, joyful wedding season of my bestie, gathering with mom and my aunt (endless shopping and good food), reviving the blog, to the leap of faith of submitting an entry for a contest. 

Woah. Eventful, hectic, yet meaningful 2015. 

I wondered how did it pass so fast and how did I survive the ups and downs of 2015. One thing for sure, it was by the grace of God. 

The other thing was that I was hanging unto a poem that was introduced on the last episode of tvN drama: Let’s Eat/식샤를합시다 (season 1). 

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The drama itself was enjoyable – although I had to jump and skip some of it on the second half of the series (was too scared to watch the thriller parts and some of it were too dragging). The ending was very humble and touching.  Each episode was filled with yummy goodness that always left me craving for the particular food item they introduced (I would end up buying or making it or drooling on the screen). I love how they did the foodporn shots with bubbling sizzling sounds plus the *aaahh how could you eat so deliciously like that* acting of the casts! 

Anyways, the poem is called 밥/Rice by 처양희/Chun Yang-Hui. This poem gave me strength to persevere and to digest whatever came my way. Anyone needing an encouragement or two might be able to relate to the poem. I, myself, have this written and posted on my fridge and on my work computer’s monitor; and it goes like this:

외로워서 밥을 많이 먹다던 네에게 / To you who eat a lot because you’re lonely

권태로워 잠을 많이 자다던 너에게/ To you who sleep a lot becaue you’re bored

슬퍼서 많이 운다던 너에게 / To you who cry a lot because you’re sad

나는 쓴다 / I’m writing to you

궁지에 몰린 마음을 밥처럼 씹어라 / Those harbouring feelings that are pushed into a corner, chew them like (when you’re eating) rice

어차피 삶은 너가 소화해야 할 것이니까 / Because afterall, life is something that you would have to digest

My resolutions in 2016? I hope to grow stronger, better, happier, healthier personally. To persevere in doing what I love (like creating posts for this blog). To never stop learning. And to love more (God #1, fam, self, others). 

May you also find your mojo to bring the lessons you have had in 2015 to bring the best of 2016 for you and the people around you. Cause life is something that you have to digest anyway. Let’s rock 2016! Let’s level up and grow even more!

  

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Ps: go watch the Let’s Eat season 1 if you need a drama to fill the rest of your NY long weekend 😀 *don’t blame me for excessive drooling ang constant hunger when you’re watching it tho*

 

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Ways To Be Pretty – She Was Pretty

Happy Friday the 13th!

You know what’s coming your way, K-Drama lovers! Yes. It is a sad day when I finally write about She Was Pretty/그녀는예뻤다 *meaning that the series has now concluded. c’est fini!*

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When I started to *ehem* ponder about the drama, I felt I wanted to write about a lot of stuff. But I realized that, that a-lot-of-stuff is not what I want to share with you. So I will try to convey/share my reflections that I received from watching this super interesting/could not be more exciting than this/I’m so gonna watch it all over again kind of drama. Today, Kim Hye-Jin is the main lead of this post, and the other main characters might need to move a little bit and stay as a supporting roles as she is finding the ways to be pretty.

But before we get to those points, let me just say these:

I was kind of very much disappointed by the sad ending rumors that hovered around the web. Although, they made sense to some extents, I do think that it took away the whole meaning of the drama *and would have totally changed the genre from romantic comedy to horror melodrama*. I was hesitant to watch episode 15 because of that. Even though, it turned out to be good, I still had the feeling of being ”betrayed” :D. That being said, the ending episodes (15 and 16) are the perfect series wrap-up. Providing flashbacks to some of the previous episodes, without making it feel “too rushed for it to be over” like how some dramas make you feel as they are coming to an end. 딱내스타일! (exactly my style!). Even if you have not watched the drama, watching episodes 15 and 16 will tell you enough of its “lessons of the story” with a “now get up and do what you love” kind of kick. Still, I want to share some of those valuable scenes, quotes and thoughts of it. I seriously encourage you to watch *at least* episode 16 as it carries so many good meaning and heart-warming see-it’s-ok-not-to-be-ok

Episode 16: http://www.viki.com/videos/1079550v-she-was-pretty-episode-16

Shout out to Choi Si-Won! Well, if you know that he was the first Korean boy band member that I was a fan of *I named my “first” puppy doll 별시원/as in Star Si-Won*, you might think that I have biased for his acting. But nope. I have not been following his acting career. But! I’m giving him my standing ovation! His acting is more than idol-dives-into-acting-scenes kind of acting. Bravo!

And 소영아…이소영, if you are reading this.you were right about Park Seo-Jun right from that drama screenshot you tagged me on Instagram. (Let’s take a moment for some fan-girl-ing).

Hardships, hardships, hardships

It is really easy to feel that our life is controlled by other circumstances. There are so many posts on Facebook, implying that new moms who have not been doing her make-up or making her hair have somewhat given up on certain things. Well I do remember days when I feel like I could do something if, and only if, the situations I was in were different. 

It was told that Kim Hye-Jin carried the not so pretty genes of her father. Plus, the family financial situation, and every other situation dictated her to keep her appearance like “Jackson style”:

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Well, it should not also dictate how you feel about yourself, let alone to limit you from what you can or cannot do in the society. I know it is easier said than done. But apparently, not everyone has the same view as other people. And that person, of a bunch of people, could recognized your true potential, and maybe help you sharpen some edges that could help you make your way through those harsh piercing eyes and judgements.

Looking through the foggy glass

Sometimes, it takes another pair of eyes to appreciate yourself, for who you are, even when you are covered in mud. They may take form as your best friends, mom, teachers, etc. But they are the one who could see your beauty, even when you could not see it for yourself.

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Credit: MBC. Subs: Drama Fever

I really love the above scenes for two main reasons:

  1. Simple happiness. Sung-Joon and Hye-Jjin was looking at the same sky and was mesmerized by its beauty. Happiness is not far away and it comes in the simplest form. If only we could stop and inhale all the small happiness around us.
  2. Kim Shi-Hyeok. Looking at Jackson with a confirming statement that she IS indeed pretty. Even though she was not in the place to see it for her self.

Kim Shi-Hyeok saw through the outer appearance of Jackson Kim Hye-Jin, that acts as if it’s a shield or fogs on a glass. But his voice was not heard because she was busy hearing other noises.

Being pretty for yourself

I treasure episode 15 and 16 the most. Like I said before, even if you are not a drama fan, or if you are not interested in watching She Was Pretty, I think episode 15 and 16 are worth investing your time. There are so many things that can help you understand that you should not do a make over for other people but your self. I’m not saying if you can or cannot or should or should not.

Kim Hye-Jin did an extreme make over. When she was little, she used to go to the beauty shops to get her hair done. And for some reasons *hardships of life* she just stopped carding. That appearance always brought her spirit down as people always treated her as a second class citizen. A supporting role. So she changed the way her dressed and put on some makeup, to prove that people were wrong about her. It did help her. Maybe we need to start from the out side to believe what’s in the inside of us is, in a matter of fact, pretty.

But that did not make her feel 100% happy. With the help of Ha-Ri, Sung-Joon, and Reporter Kim, she finally came to realization that she needs to be pretty for herself. More than anything else, and more than for anyone else.

And she found, that you will glow and look pretty when you do what you love. After all, it’s the inside that matter, right?

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But now, I have this thought. Maybe it was me who decided that I was one of the supporting characters – kind of thought

Unlike any other Cinderella drama, Kim Hye-Jin did not really maintain her “up-do” and “made” look to reach her happy ending. In fact, she turned to her old looks but looking prettier than ever (thank you writer-nim for doing this. Jo Sung-heem I’ll be your new fan!). With that look, she accomplished so many things and shine even brighter than compared to when she had that hair-makeup-and-most-like-fashion make over.

So today, I hope I could encourage all of the Kim Hye-Jins out there to not focus so much on what life and society dictate you to be. Even though they could drive you to a certain direction. It is you who would decide if you want to stay to be just a supporting role, or the main lead of your life. With or without looking pretty for the eyes to see. Even though it is easier said than done, don’t you think that this drama is right about one thing? You will look pretty if you have the confident that will convince the love for your self. “Do what you love, and it will love you back” than could be heard as “Do what you love and you will be glowing from the inside”. That what makes you pretty.

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