Same as you, both strong headed and indecisive – with Joo Young

Happy Monday (Sunday to me),

 

 

When people say there are truths in alcohol, then for my girls and I a couple glasses of wine taught us that 1/3 of us is very strong headed for things that she does not want/like but yet unbelievably indecisive for something that she wants/likes.

 

If that one of us can say one thing, with a strong conviction, of what she wants/likes of a relationship would be whatever this song implied

 

 

 

Lyrics + Translations

 

 

그대와 같아 – 주영

Same As You (Sweet Ver.) – Joo Young

 

 

그대와 같아 조금도 변한 게 없어 / same as you, nothing is going to change

여전히 그대 밖에 없어 / as ever, there’s no one but you

그대와 같아 누가 뭐래도 / same as you, no matter what anyone say

그댈 잃지 않을 거야 / I’m not going to lose you

 

 

견딜 수 없을 만큼 힘들 때도 / even during unbearably hard times

그대 생각에 하루를 살죠 / I live through a day by thinking of you

언제나 함께 어디든 함께 / together whenever, together wherever

모든 걸 함께하고 싶은데 / I wish to do everything together with you

 

 

그대와 같아 조금도 다르지 않아 / same as you, there’s not even a slightest difference

Since I’ve been loving you

그대와 같은 꿈을 꿈꾸고 있죠 / still dreaming the same dream with you

Can I love you forever more

 

 

그대와 같아 첨봤을때부터 / same as you, from the first time I saw you

지금까지 내 맘속엔 한 사람밖에 없어 / until now, there is only one person in my heart

그대와 같아 어떤 이유도 / same as you, whatever the reason is

내 맘 바꾸지 못해 / I can’t change my heart

 

 

견딜 수 없을 만큼 힘들 때도 / even during unbearably hard times

그대 생각에 하루를 살죠 / I live through a day by thinking of you

언제나 함께 어디든 함께 / together whenever, together wherever

모든 걸 함께하고 싶은데 / I wish to do everything together with you

 

 

그대와 같아 조금도 다르지 않아 / same as you, there’s not even a slightest difference

Since I’ve been loving you

그대와 같은 꿈을 꿈꾸고 있죠 / dreaming the same with you

Can I love you forever more

 

 

그대와 같아 조금도 다르지 않아 / same as you, there’s not even a slightest difference

Since I’ve been loving you

그대와 같은 꿈을 꿈꾸고 있죠 / still dreaming the same dream with you

Can I love you

 

 

Can I love you forever more

I just wanna love you

I really wanna do anything for you

Can I love you forever more

I just wanna love you

I really wanna do anything

everything for you

 

 

그대와 같아 / same as you

그대와 같아 / same as you

 

 

그대와 같아 조금도 변한 게 없어 / same as you, nothing is going to change

여전히 그대 밖에 없어 / as ever, no one but you

 

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Credit: Starship X Entertainment

 

Relationship should be 2 different individuals not trying to be like each other. But instead it should be 2 different individuals, staying through to their uniqueness, dreaming each of their own dreams but walking together.

Then the dream of 3/3 of us. To be the only main heroine of the relationship and not an option out of a number of other girls.

Now sweetly dreaming while balancing the strong headed-indecisiveness that we might have here and there, I wish you to have a great last Monday of February (yes, already).

 

 

 

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Credit: Starship X

 

Until then….

 

 

 

Love,

Med

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Looking for that star with Heize

Rainy Monday is back!

Hi Everyone, how was your Winter? Reporting from Vancouver, although the rain have been making its appearances a lot lately, apparently the city is not over with its Snowmageddon yet.

One funny thing though, I have been finding clearer views of the stars at night. Maybe the after-math of snowmageddon days would be a much clearer night sky? If that’s the case, I’ll go against the odds and welcome more snow into the city s’il vous plait.

For someone who is really into star gazing and star constellations (nope, I am not a pro), I have been using star(s) as the theme of my creative writings from as early as I could remember (probably since grade 7 or 8). So it’s inevitable that I am attracted in other creative arts which resolve around the theme of <Star>.

 

 

 

 

 

I am also an avid fan of Korean rap/R&B/Soul/Hip-Hop, more than the infamous K-pop sibling. However, I don’t usually go for a female rappers for the reason that they might sound tougher in ways that don’t quite resonate with my likings. But Heize is different, and I grow to like her stuffs ever since I started discovering her music. Maybe it’s the melodic tunes that pick on the more feminine part of being a rapper, or the vocals she often throw in in the chorus. It’s just softer and nicer to listen to.

 

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Credit: CJ E&M

 

장다혜/Jang Da-Hye a.k.a Heize debuted as a singer/rapper in 2014. She performed and produced most of her music in the indie/underground scene. She is gained her major popularity from her participation in the music competition program: Unpretty Rapstar 2 in 2015. Her songs and collaborations with other rappers/musicians alike have been gaining a lot of love and likes. The song: Star is her non-album single released in December 2016.

 

Lyrics +Translations

 

별 – 헤이즈

That Star – Heize

 

 

혹시 저 별도 나를 보고 있을까 / is that star looking at me too by any chance?

아니 날 보고 있지 않을까  / I mean, maybe it’s looking at me

저 별도 나를 보고 있을까  / is that star is also looking at me?

아니 날 / or I mean…

 

 

지금 날 찾고 있진 않을까 / Maybe it is looking for me right now

아니 날 피해 가고 있을까  / Or no maybe it is avoiding me

아니 날 / or I mean …

 

 

오늘따라 넌 더 희미해 / today of all days you look even dimmer than usual

그래서 이 밤은 내겐 무의미해  / so this night might mean nothing to me

어두운 밤이 지나 아침이 온대도 / even after the dark night passes and the morning comes

구름에 가려 보이지 않을 때도  / even when the clouds appear, blocking the view

너 그 자리에 있단 걸 난 알아도 / even when I know that you are there at that place

 

 

넌 내가 보이지 않을 때마다 / whenever you can’t see me

항상 불안해했으니까 / you were always anxious

저 구름이 이제 비가 되어서  / for that cloud to become rain

내리기만을 나는 기도해  / for it to rain down, I pray

 

 

혹시 저 별도 나를 보고 있을까 / is that star looking at me too by any chance?

아니 날 보고 있지 않을까  / I mean, maybe it’s looking at me

저 별도 나를 보고 있을까  / is that star is also looking at me?

아니 날 / or I mean…

 

 

지금 날 찾고 있진 않을까 / Maybe it is looking for me right now

아니 날 피해 가고 있을까  / Or no maybe it is avoiding me

아니 날 / or maybe I …

 

 

 

너만큼 반짝이는 게 또 있을까 / would there be anything as shiny as you?

너무 멀어서 / you’re too far away

내 노래가 들리지 않을까 / so you can’t hear my song

내가 보고 있는 게 / the thing that I am looking at right now

지금의 너가 맞을까 / is it really you?

매일 밤 너를 보며 / while looking at you every night

두 손 모은 나를 봤을까 / did you see me gather my two hands

너도 나를 봤을까 / did you look at me too

아님 피해 갔을까 / or did you turn away

내 품에 떨어지길 기도해 / I pray that you will fall into my embrace

my shooting star

다시는 놓치지 않을 텐데 / I would not ever let go

my shining star

이 시간들은 그저 과정일 뿐이야 / this passing time is just a process

 

 

혹시 저 별도 나를 보고 있을까 / is that star looking at me too by any chance?

아니 날 보고 있지 않을까  / I mean, maybe it’s looking at me

저 별도 나를 보고 있을까  / is that star is also looking at me?

아니 날 / or I mean…

 

 

지금 날 찾고 있진 않을까 / Maybe it is looking for me right now

아니 날 피해 가고 있을까  / Or no maybe it is avoiding me

아니 날 / or maybe I …

 

 

내가 할 수 있는 건 그대 / the only thing I can do, dear

이 순간에도날 보고 있다고 믿는 것/ believing that right at this moment you are also looking at me

그래서 난 네가 떠난 이후로 / So I, after you have left me

스쳐간 흔적도 없지 그 누구도 / there was no brazing trace, there was no one

그런데 왜 넌 항상 보여도 / but why is even that I see you all the time

손 닿을 수도 안을 수도 없는 걸 / I can’t touch nor hug you

 

 

혹시 저 별도 나를 보고 있을까 / is that star looking at me too by any chance?

아니 날 보고 있지 않을까  / I mean, maybe it’s looking at me

저 별도 나를 보고 있을까  / is that star is also looking at me?

아니 날 / or I mean…

 

 

지금 날 찾고 있진 않을까 / Maybe it is looking for me right now

아니 날 피해 가고 있을까  / Or no maybe it is avoiding me

아니 날 / or maybe I …

 

 

This emotional lyric and analogy of someone looking at a star and imagining whether the star is looking back at her or avoiding her:

is it one sided love? Or is it reminiscing of a past lover that you can’t have back?

Depending on your emotional state of mind right now, it might mean one over the other. It’s all open for your own interpretation. That’s the beauty of using an analogy or a symbol in a song.

But, for “star”-gazers out there. Would it be easier to let go of a too far-fetched star, then agonizing if that star will ever look back at you, even worse to wish for a falling star to land in your embrace?

I know a friend who would build a rocket and fly to the outer space so the star would look back at him. But sadly sometimes, the star would rather stay where it is and gaze at the universe, rather than falling for him.

And for me, I would star gaze and fall into the agony until I gain my clear senses back, and move on.

Whatever it is…may all of you, even in the dark of night, will be able to see clearly be amazed by the shining stars, while believing that maybe something closer is available for you. That might be worth more of your effort to look and to fight for than to gaze at the unreachable star.

 

 

Until another starry night!

 

 

Love,

Med!

 

 

To be a little braver is scary – New Empire

Hi Monday,

 

 

With Fall knocking on the door and Summer is getting ready to leave, life gets a little awaking from its summer night dream like days. New semester, new place to live, new friends, new job – all new decisions in life usually fall in this season (no pun intended).

Whatever it is, from time to time, we will need to be a little braver.

But do you know what comes before being able to be a little braver? A burst of feeling scared. Scared of changes, scared of failing(s), scared of being in a completely new environment, scared of being outside your comfort zone.

I just made my first step. I don’t know if it will bring me somewhere new. All I know is that I made the right decision to keep my life worth living. My friend just told me that he also made that decision of being a little braver for his dream. I know he would say the same thing. It’s both comforting and encouraging to know that it’s normal to feel scared of being a little braver for our own good (hopefully).

Will it be easy? Man, by now I know that life is nothing but easy. Will it be worth it? I would say YES.

In the meantime, let’s just map our what-next with a smile and an even stronger determination.

Here is a song that kept ringing in my head. I know, I know, it’s a love song. But somehow it kept on pushing me to make friend with change and that it’s OK to start all over again (with life).

Ps.: This is an OST of a Kim Woo-Bin drama that made me cry (I don’t normally cry watching k-dramas): 함부로 애틋하게/Uncontrollably Fondly

 

Lyrics

A Little Braver – New Empire

With December comes the glimmer on her face
And I get a bit nervous, I get a bit nervous now
In the twelve months on I won’t make friends with change
When everyone’s perfect can we start over again
The playgrounds they get rusty and your heart beats another ten thousand times before
I got the chance to say I miss you

When it gets hard, I get a little stronger now
I get a little braver now
And when it gets dark, I get a little brighter now
I get a little wiser now
Before I give my heart away

Well we met each other at the house of runaways
I remember it perfectly, we were running on honesty
We moved together like a silver lock and key
But now that your lock has changed, I know I can’t fit that way
The playgrounds they get rusty and your heart beats another ten thousand times before
I got the chance to say I want you

When it gets hard, I get a little stronger now
I get a little braver now
And when it gets dark, I get a little brighter now
I get a little wiser now
Before I give my heart away
When it gets hard, I get a little stronger now
I get a little braver now
And when it gets dark, I get a little brighter now
I get a little wiser now
Before I give my heart away

 

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Credit: KBS

Love,

Med

Happy Strawberry Cheesecake Day 2016!

Happy Whimsical Hump Day!

 

Today is a slow day at work, so I decide I should just post something. *shhh. this will be done and  posted on my break*  

 

It is my 2x birthday strawberry cheesecake day today. I don’t normally celebrate this day other than by having the tradition of inhaling a piece of yummy strawberry cheesecake. However, being Asian, a lot of the wishes I got from le dear family this year has just got to be about love life/Marriage *mom please stop for a while, if not just for today. pleaseeee* 😀 . Sigh.

 

Since they decide to think, if not worry, about that oh-so-Asian-of-them on my behalf, I decided to create a list of things to do before 30 instead. And I’m gonna share some of it here.

 

  1. Be kind anyway! 
  2. Go to Banff (11 years in Canada and yet……. I know!)
  3. Conquer my acrophobia by trying bungee jumping (SOON!)
  4. Go on Zipline – Whistler!!!!
  5. Try painting for the first time
  6. Visit places outside Seoul/Gyeonggi-Do when I  go to 대.한.민.국!
  7. Try 산낙지/live octopus *Chendani I’m looking at you. Yes you!*
  8. Visit famjam in either Australia/Netherlands and go on a backpack trip around the country
  9. Publish my Indonesian poems project that I have been putting on hold for years (Thanks Mita and Prof.(?) Manneke for the idea and encouragement)
  10. Register for Korean translation certificate!
  11. Be a stronger, courageous, and happier self.

 

I guess that’s my updated personal goal as I have crossed or modified the list I had when I created this blog.

 

Even though lately, due to training and work, I have less time to watch k-dramas which resulted in me only having enough time just to post Korean music related stuffs, I will try my best to bring more contents to this blog. Not just the regular so-this-is-what-Korean-stuffs-look-like. I hope that by reading this blog, not only you can learn about Korean culture and language with me, but also I hope you can pick an inspiration or two, consolation, or encouragement for your own self. Ok, let’s call that @edreaMJ’s  vision!

 

I would like to thank all of you, across the world (based on wordpress stats), who have visited this blog! That means the world to me 🙂

 

Now, help me cross out that list, if not, come a long as I sneak in all Koreanness into my adventure.

 

Let’s go!

 

Love,

The 20-something Med enjoying her 08-06-2016 Strawberry cheesecake day!

 

Why Watch DOTS

Hi Sth..sth day!

Let me tell you how my Friday went, in correlations to why do you have to watch DOTS (Descendants of The Sun) now.

  
It wan an unusually super duper extra busy day at work. Not enough sleep. Too much worrying about le damn sleeping posture .And your hand was so thirsty, you decided to pour hot water on it for some tea time. Again. How could you type with burnt hand, dummy! And you almost forgot that it was your best friend’s birthday. You went through the day to find that you have to *apparently* get your sth fixed. Sigh. You spent your day worrying on that stupid news that someone died after visiting the chiropractor. Damn you sleeping habit. I hope no chiro still. Cakes. Present. Time oh time I need more of you today. What am I doing here again? And out of pure stress *of yourself and why couldn’t you get it right, Med* you said something you did not mean to. Damn what did I say?  And then you rush to get a cake. No. Cupcake. Only to remember that your best friend does not like cupcales. Damn. Present. Yes. Present. Fast forward from meeting and a board game session *woohoo I finally won* it was almost 3 am and you suddenly realized that the thing that you said out loud thoughtlessly might have been taken in a wrong way and might sound like you were not grateful. No. That was not it. How to fix it. You will then decide to try to forget it by watching DOTS.

Congratulations you have read everything. Pointless. But true. Well kinda.

No. I wanted to post something about 태양의 후예/Descendants of The Sun/DOTS. But I know most of you are still catching up with the episodes. So I don’t want to spoil it for you guys.

One thing for sure tho, it’s that the drama surpassed most expectations. The acting qualities!! I guess breaking through the “traditional” k-drama making process was worth the try.  I guess this is my bias. And I will talk more on this on my next “real post” of the drama.

There’s no correlation between watching the drama with how rough my Friday went.  But it is still a good excuse for a re-run. So, whatever your excuse is (or are), go watch DOTS now!
  

단결!

Love, Med